Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Dear Twenties....

It’s coming, time is not stopping and what has been viewed as the apocalypse for women, atleast this woman is about to happen. Here lies at the end of this month the end of a decade filled with prime experiences and the start to a fresh and new period. [Grab some coffee and pop a xanax because it’s about to get philosophical.]

Dear Twenties,

We’ve been together for a decade now and the time is approaching for us to sever our ties and move on. While we’ve been together for so long it’s going to be a difficult separation because we’ve been through a lot and thought I was comfortable with but realized that I’ve outgrown you and it’s time you live a life without me. You need to let me go.

When we first met we were breaking out of comfort zones trying to find ourselves with friends we thought were there for us but in turn were there for trips to Canada, times spent away from what was important and spent on partying and getting lost in a sea of being numb. You showed me that every day is different from the next and when the sun rises so does our soul and with that got me back on track and back in the right direction. Tossing aside hard parties, bad boys and reeled in history books and college applications for a place that will always be home. A place that you knew was as much a part of me as the hair on my head.

While at university we moved away for the first time and knew we could do it. We could find, have and really know what it meant to experience fun. We met friends that became family and opened new doors to seeing the world through clear eyes. We traveled the world and discovered that life is more than a grey cubicle and can be anything we really and truly want.

The last few years have passed by with the blink of an eye but have been nothing short of noteworthy. We’ve seen births, deaths, engagements and divorces. We’ve had surprises that have turned into letdowns but ultimately they’ve told us everything we need to know, we weren’t ready for what is about to come. Moves have brought us strength, breakups have brought us independence and a search for nothing perfect but something comfortable and fitting.

We’ve accomplished a lot more than what could have been expected and I am thankful for your support but I must leave you now in order to move forward. No I’m not going to start wearing mumus and get gray hairs and if I do I have a colorist who can fix that snarky little problem in no time. It’s time for a change and that time is now. So I’m going to walk away and not look back, because it’s for the best for both of us. I love you and will never forget you. Thank you for all of the memories.

Morgan

In twenty nine days I will be leaving my twenties behind and heading into the big bright shining star that is the big THREE OH.

Is there anything that I can’t do that hasn’t been done during the past ten years? Apart from getting drunk in school girl uniforms, cage dancing, random encounters with Scottish futbol players, international travel, and a whole lot of moves sandwiched in between? I’d like to think not.

The years have mostly been filled with moments of self discovery and exploring different extremes to see what paths they lead to. They have taken me to such locations I’d never dreamed about had I not dared to believe and trust what could be.

It has been a period for growing up, a phase for maturing. Of course growing up I had created visions of what things would look like, how they could turn and needless to say. Those were only pipe dreams, fun to have in memory but reality hits.

After putting off university because a party personality had taken over and having to explain to patients while checking them in that getting a tongue piercing was ‘the thing to do’ I made the wisest decision of my life. Grow up and get a damn education.

When you catch yourself looking around second guessing if you’re ever going to be something rather than a medical receptionist working 14 hour days it’s time to make a decision. University was just that, I stopped partying. Took out the tongue ring, but got another tattoo to replace it and enrolled in extra classes at the local community college. I tossed out the party girl and never looked back. Which lead to endless opportunities and countless prospects.

In giving thanks, Thank you for the countless times hairstyles and clothes got tossed through the air like candy wrappers. For the cautious reminders that mixed drinks are not a viable option on nights out but shots of tequila will go down like water. For the many men that have come and gone and taught me things that I probably don’t need to know but am certainly glad I do know because there is a reason they’re still not hanging around.

Mostly, thank you for the 3,652 days that have been filled with ups and down, sunshine and snow and experiences that I would never trade nor regret for this lifetime or the next.

It has taken twenty nine years and 336 days to finally get over the anxiety when that should have been replaced with a little excitement or at least eased with some expensive champagne. I can’t help but think that turning 30 is basically like turning twenty all over again. It’s a new time only this time I’m looking at this through clearer eyes that are steady and unafraid. There’s more anticipation to see what can happen and how I can make it happen.

Birthdays have never been a big deal and I don’t plan to change that up this year, but I will go into this new period without any expectations. Without creating an elaborate vision of what could be and just experience it for what it is and keep doing things that bring a smile to the face. I’m opening my mind and heart to this new time and think it couldn’t have been a better time to turn into this new age.

23 comments:

  1. This post has got to be one of your best. I am loving it :) And loving you in it! With your attitude in life, no age will ever define you or slow you down. I hope ya'll have an amazing time ringing in 30! It is definitely something to celebrate :)

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  2. Hi Morgan! This post was amazing! You have a good thing with the words going on. Oh and Happy early 3-0:) I am now following you thanks to Mid Week Mingle and it would be so nice if you could share the love back on my blog:)
    And don't forget to check our new Blog Tutorial to learn a few easy tricks to make your blog fabulous and fun. See you there!
    Happy Wednesday

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  3. @Texa:Thanks for that! Why are the hard ones always the best, this one took forever to get out. It's funny how everything goes by so quickly and even better when you wake up and say 'O-kay, this is it, it just is so go with it' 29 days and no longer counting!

    @Designit:Welcome! thanks for stopping by I will most def be scooting over pronto. I have no blog/tech skills and could use a little fabulous and fun for this little bloggy!

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  4. What a great attitude--reminds me a lot of the Tim McGraw song from the 90s, My Next Thirty Years. I happen to think like wine, people only get better with age :)

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  5. @KT:I love Tim McGraw! You read my mind, I had that in the post but revised it. Completely agree with ya. Too funny.

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  6. Hi Morgan,
    I loved reading this post!! I am sure that there are so many people who will read this and be able to relate, I certainly could =)
    It gives off a strong sense of confidence and self realization.
    Happy Early Birthday!!!

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  7. @Crystal:No time like the present to keep looking ahead right!? 15 or 30 it's all about embracing and being open.

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  8. I don't think I have ever read anything more accurate, witty, and fun to read about this phase of life than your post! It is absolutely how I would describe my twenties! I love it! Great great job writing this!

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  9. Great post!!! Happy Early birthday!!! I'm in the same boat as you. I will be 30 in October. My 20's have been fun and exciting. I'm looking forward to the 30's, but not looking forward to the "maturing" and physical changes that come with it. LOL. You can't have one without the other. I applaud you.

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  10. What a great post! My 30th was very special -- it was the weekend I got engaged!

    I am now a GFC follower, found you from the FHS Social Buzz hop.

    http://itrystuffon.blogspot.com

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  11. Love this post SO much! I'm in my mid twenties, so not quite there yet, but I'm hoping it comes pleasantly.

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  12. @Rebecca:Our twenties are for exploration no? They can be fun,crazy, outrageous and outlandish but it's all part of the puzzle.

    @Lala:Me either! The day I see a wrinkle it's time to make an appt for botox (though I've already done it and it's really no biggie!)

    @Itrystuff:How sweet is that, talk about enterring a new part of your life with a bang! Welcome so glad you stopped by!

    @Ashley:Enjoy the years, have you seen Little Miss Sunshine? Picture the Grandpa's speech in the back of the van to the boy...that's my advice only more symbollic of course(dirty minds)and not exactly in that context!

    I must say it's lovely to hear how you all can relate!

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  13. I love this post! Your 30's are so much better, trust me. Your 20's are definitely a time for pushing bounderies and self-discovery. With the big 30 comes a new level of confidence and maturity, we grow even prettier and earn more money too.

    Enjoy the final days of 29!

    P.S. Never got to tell you that I love the portion of your manuscript that you posted. I was captivated :)

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  14. @No7:Phew! That is fabulous news...growing prettier this I agree earn more money...ugh I sure hope so!

    Thanks so much for that and for taking the time to read it, it really means a lot.

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  15. What an honest post and review.

    Your blog is really unique and entertaining, well done.
    I remember dancing on a table in Greece once upon a time and ending up in hospital with three stitches, in retrospect, being in my 30s is probably more sustainable and less dangerous!!!!

    Go 30s, onwards and upwards.

    I am a new follower, feel free to drop over to our blog too!

    http://beourbest.blogspot.com/

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  16. hey.....
    I loved reading this post!! I am sure that there are so many people who will read this and be able to relate, I certainly could =)

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  17. @Jill:I can only imagine the pain. But the beauty of Greece had to have been worth it. Thanks for making the jaunt over, I'm scooting out to see what it's all about.

    @sim:I'm so glad you could relate to it, twenties = crazy ass..but still great times.

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  18. :) lol love it!

    glad i found you on the thursday hop :)


    Lori
    http://chroniclesofacrazymom.blogspot.com

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  19. Hello,
    I am your newest follower from the hop. Please stop by and say hi and follow me too!
    Thanks and have a great day!
    Maureen- Areyouamom.com

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  20. So enjoyed this post; made me wish I had paid more attention to my life as I sped through my 20's, 30's, 40's, 50's and ended up where I am today...wondering where all that time has gone.

    One positive is that I've managed to retain a relatively younger outlook (and hopefully, appearance) in life even being a Gramma of four exquisite little beings. Shucks, looking back at photos of my late mother, and her mother, at my age, I'm dayum well-preserved for 65!

    Definitely looking forward to my next 30 years....and more of your posts, Morgan!

    Patty
    http://anothercookieplease.blogspot.com

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  21. I am getting ready to say bye to my twenties too.

    Happy Thursday! I am blog hopping today and I am so happy I got to stop by your blog!!

    Please come by and visit either or both of my blogs and become a follower (if you aren't one already):

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    Have a very blessed Thursday!! :0)

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  22. @crazyladylori:Okay...I LUV your name. There. And Second.Welcome to the partay!

    @Areyouamom:Welcome to you too! Thanks for making the stop in, I'm poppin' over.

    @Slidecutter.aka.Patty:haha. One can only wish that we are as blessedly (making up words) lucky in preserving our looks in the background of you-I'm heading straight for a plastic surgeons office for sure!Postive attitude within reflects on the outside, love this!

    @Jessica:Thanks for dropping in, and for the hint! Defo not in the techy savvy motif over here so I'll check it out. {this} needs sprucing

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  23. Great letter!
    Dropping in on this one through Blog Gems :)

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